I Can't Pretend

i can't pretend anymore
my life is meaningless
what do i have
except my black self
all i know makes no sense
i might as well be on the cross
for i can't save myself
from this empty meaningless life
those i've tried to love
are no longer close to me
and i'm no longer close to them
i'm miles apart from everything
i used to know
the truth is
people are people
they will use you and abuse you
all we do is think of ourselves
i wish this was a cry for help
but its already too late
you mean nothing to me
and i mean nothing to you
if we actually cared
life would actually be fair.